I feel like I keep doing this over and over again, blogging, but for some reason I don’t keep it up. I’m going to really try and change that now. I think for the most part I stop because I think, what is the point. Well who cares, if its just me that reads it and its therapeutic for me then I’ll give it a try again.
Since my last post I went back to work after being on short term leave for a few months. Well that lasted until this April. I’m now on a short term leave again. I need to re adjust some meds and get back into physical therapy again. I’ve set up my first appointment on Monday.
So hopefully while I’m on again, I can make some progress for my health.
I keep waiting for it. I feel like its just around the corner but nothing is there. I think I have migraine PTSD.
I’ve slowly been testing my triggers and limits to make sure I’m okay enough to go back to work but this week I really went beyond all my limits. We threw a costume party this weekend with our game night friends between the cleaning, the decorating and the actual party I really pushed it!
So then I wake up today thinking I might be facing issues. Then I look out the window and see that its pouring rain. Rain is my biggest trigger. Nothing, not even a hint of a headache.
Today is day 37 in a row without a headache or migraine and I am just beyond myself in disbelief. Physical therapy has done my body wonders!
Next challenge: I go back to work Friday. That will be the true test. In the meantime, I’m focusing on not allowing the migraine PTSD to take over and just enjoy every moment!
Yet another great article from one of my favorite resources about dealing with chronic pain, The Mighty.com. Trying to work and dealing with chronic illness is a HUGE struggle I face as do so many others. Many people wonder how to cope and what are their options. I found this article really helpful and I really relate, again, to all the words as if I wrote it myself.
“A person with a chronic condition could be smiling and laughing on the outside but feel like absolute hell on the inside. But we may not want to draw attention to our illness, so we hide it behind smiles and “I’m OK”s.” ~The Mighty.com
I read this article today and it was as if I wrote almost all the words myself. To anyone suffering with a chronic illness I suggest giving this article a read!
“I shrink the anxiety monster with happiness and love because I won’t ever let it win.” ~ The Mighty.com
I had a follow up appointment with my regular doctor on Thursday and I found myself saying these words, “I just have to accept it and ride the wave.” I was referring to my at times overwhelming health issues.
I recently met with several doctors trying to dig for answers. I have had migraines all my life but I just felt like something else had to be going on. I have way more bad days than I do good and I was at the point where I just felt at the end of my rope. I know anyone with chronic illness has felt the same way at one time or another.