I feel like that is what I am doing right now. For the first time in years I’m turning my back on the fears that have kept me from being who I know God has called me to be.
Since I was a little girl I knew that I was supposed to be a writer. I wanted to write people’s stories.
But there was a lot of fear there that has held me back for many years. I felt like I couldn’t write because I have no college experience so my grammar and spelling would be bad. So why even start. I had defeated myself before I even began.
Another fear was fear of what my friends and family would think. I’m someone that will readily admit I don’t handle criticism very well. So if I started writing and tried to get things published. What would my family and friends say and how would that affect me.
Then there is also a slight fear of accomplishing a dream. Everyone has a dream but a lot of people when finally given the chance to have it cower away in fear. They deal with things that I have already mentioned plus a little bit of pride and insecurity. They have dreamt about it for so long but when it comes down to actually doing it and walking it out they just stop and don’t dive in.
God has had me in this refining process for a few years now. He has had me in a stage of massive growth. Getting to know who he has called me to be. He has helped me to deal with my insecurities and pride. This doesn’t mean that I am the most amazing person at taking criticism but I look at it in a different light now. I want to hear what people have to say so that I can make myself better. Weed out the bad stuff and take in all the good stuff.
So here I am today. I’ve been unleashed. Ready to put my pen to paper and write. Write whatever I feel God wants me to write, write people’s stories to encourage others. I am ready.
I can’t get my thoughts down fast enough. So brace yourself. I have a lot to say and…well I hope it helps you on your journey.
I’m ready to dive into the deep!!