I had a follow up appointment with my regular doctor on Thursday and I found myself saying these words, “I just have to accept it and ride the wave.” I was referring to my at times overwhelming health issues.
I recently met with several doctors trying to dig for answers. I have had migraines all my life but I just felt like something else had to be going on. I have way more bad days than I do good and I was at the point where I just felt at the end of my rope. I know anyone with chronic illness has felt the same way at one time or another.
My doctors have finally come to the conclusion that on top of chronic migraines it’s also very possible I have Fibromyalgia. If you go down the check list I have every symptom. I even read some articles on how to recognize Fibro in children and I also had all of those symptoms as a child. It’s likely I’ve been dealing with it for most of my life and had no idea. My doctor has started me on some meds for fibro and I am starting to see some real changes to pain symptoms that I was constantly dealing with.
I’m not 100% yet but I finally came to the realization that I might not ever be. I keep aiming so hard to live like everyone else around be because somehow that would make me normal but I was wrong.
My health has always been an issue and yes it could go away someday but I just need to accept it and move on. When I have a good day I will have a great day and when I have a bad day I will just ride the waves until my next good one. It’s okay for me not to be perfect.
On that note, I have gone on another short term leave from work while we work on adjusting my meds. It will probably be for 2 months this time. I’m so thankful that my job can accommodate this and very thankful that I have a husband who loves and supports me no matter what.
I don’t know if anyone even reads these posts but I plan on trying to blog more about my journey with fibro and migraines. I want to share tips that I have learned along the way and I have decided that I will have a new tradition. Instead of focusing on all the things I can’t do I’m going to focus on what I was able to accomplish that day. For me that could be something as small as being able to take a shower or as big as cleaning the house by myself but I feel that I can focus on the smaller things it will help me have more of a positive attitude while dealing with all of this. Feel free to join in 🙂
- Unload dishwasher
- Load dishwasher
- Clean cat litter
- Re organize gym from when guests were over
- Edit and write a blog post